I HAVE BEEN PREGNANT FOR 18 MONTHS, HERE IS WHY!

I am 33 years old, pregnant with my second child. The issue is I have been pregnant for 18 weeks now which is almost two years.

I don't know what to do anymore, I have consulted both the medical and traditional way and still nobody can say what is going on. 

I unfortunately can't do a C section because of my belief, family history and fear. Anyone who gave birth through a C section has never made it out alive and the baby dies too in my family. 

So that leaves me in a position where giving birth the natural way is the only way because I am scared of the possibility of death knowingly. I want death to take me by surprise not for me to do something that I know that chances of dying are sky rocket high. 

The father of my baby is foreign, two traditional healers told me that he is dead in his country and the only way for me to give birth is to get a traditional healer from his origin. 

When I told him that they say he is dead in his country he then dissappeared on me. He woke up in the morning, left for work as usual and he has never returned. His phone is off, I've opened a case of a missing person and after investigation the police then confirmed that the person I am looking for died 10 years ago.

I don't know how? Or what's going on I'm confused and I have fallen into depression. The police say that the only way to explain what is happening is a stolen identity. I am shattered.

Since he has ran off, I always have the same dream every night. I see myself leaving my body and walking into the bushes where I find a baby. The baby seems to be mine, I breastfeed and bath the baby and leave the baby sleeping. 

In that dream I watch myself re enter my body again but when I wake up I am still heavily pregnant. Please someone who can point me to the right direction where I can get help please help me.

My life is at a stand still and I don't know what to do anymore. Why did he run away leaving me like this? Why did he make me fall inlove with him and mess up my life like this?

Since I met him my life hit a dead end. Nothing was going well for me. I lost my job, car and house. He then became my provider and took good care of me. Now I am back to suffering and being pregnant just makes everything worse.